Hey! Have some more of me.

A song I wrote I while back, but only just found! Woot. Am I really this emo? *shrug*

Who said I was moving on?

In which I pose questions
To be answered by none other
Than the one who's failed
And fallen from his life

The one who cannot see
The takes to make life need
The key to a life within my grasp
The unlocked door to another lapse

I take this time to understand
The void of self control on hand
Do I remain another day
With motivation depleted, here doth I lay

Focus on change or see it collapse
Take these promises, an unlit match
To burn a fire long since subdued
To regain my life misconstrued

For all my errors, I drink them whole
Not a bottle to spare, nor one to console
My past I lost in memory's flow
Your knowing smile has lost its glow

Your racing heart has slowed its pace
With loss I feel I'm face to face
Will your eyes light up, will I see that charm
I once possessed
Now I must arm
Myself with structure and the fire
To make you sweat, cause you to perspire

Selfish demons behind my smile
Tread my path through this dark mile
And upon conclusion pray for me to die
Rise again, see eye to eye

With all I've become, now became
I desire for past to swallow my name
Chances lost over what we felt
Was really just a coffin, nailed

I take these words, oh little rhymes
And pray you feel this weight of mine
For every day, for now I know
Seasons change, new life does grow

After a winter long, the spring needs time
To plant the seeds of passion so fine
To blossom once more with colours exotic
Fighting for love, life, chaotic

I guess now I'm saying
I'm learning, I'm trying

Give this fresh spring a chance
Or hollow souls on ashes we dance
Help me to feel like I mean everything
And that's what I'll give you, alive, promising

And I know these words will never do,
But know them now,
Love is you.

Hello. This is me. This is what I do.

A rather morbid song, written from the heart.

DIY Suicide For Broken Hearts

If I were broken
And a hammer lay on my hospital bed
Would you thake these nails
And fix me, repair me?

Thrust a nail through my spine
So I couldn't feel a thing when you touch
Another for good luck
Lines of blood, no feeling, visuals blurred

Take another nail, and press it between my eyes
Drive your point home, deep inside my skull
Your words won't flow through my ears
So bleed them fthrough the hole in my head

Another nail reserved, it's up against my chest
Slightly to my left, pierces skin and lung
You slide inside my heart
And tear the soiled fabric you find

Your final nail is drawing near
A place so tranquil and shattered
A thousand sights lit by a million lights
Shrouded in shadow, though glint of metal pierces,
Erupts my soul and deafens my sight
And all goes black, no pain endured,
Last living sight before death is the shade descending over
Blood red skies overlooking
Entire
Life
And
Death

And all is calm and black once again.