I have had a much needed break today. Had a good lie in, got up and had some toast, and sat down to check what was new on the world of the internet. Unfortunately the day has been tainted by me coming down with something that disagrees with my immune system. Just feel generally rubbish. Yeuch.
Learned yesterday that they are going to make The Hobbit into a movie. 'They' being the creators of the LotR trilogy of movies. This pleases me very much, as I am a big fan of the films. NO I haven't read the books. Although maybe I should put some time aside for reading some time... My brain feels so dead right now. I cannot concentrate at uni, I am clumsy, I cannot even form coherent sentences when speaking any more, I look at the time and as soon as I look away it has gone from my brain and I have to look again. It is all getting a bit much at the moment. I don't know what I can do.
I decided to play WoW for a while today. Of course, I was met by NO fps and constant disconnections because my wireless hates its life and thus takes it out on me. It is strange how I can play it almost constantly for over a year and a half, and suddenly I have no desire to play it
anymore.
I just want to hide away where nothing can hurt. I want to hide away and learn about things that I want to, that I won't be assessed on or that I am being told to learn, I want to shift out of this world. I want to just leave. I never really know what to say though, but it is perfect in my head. *shrug*
My writing is suffering. I haven't written anything in a while. I guess this is part of the reason for me starting this blog, so I can actually write without feeling awful because I can't write anything decent.
Now, the big question of the night is: "There is a bottle of wine in the fridge. I have to be up at 6am. It is 10pm now. Do I drink some and risk feeling awful tomorrow? Or do I drink none and worry about not getting to sleep until gone 12?"
I have my answer. To the fridge!
1 comment:
Oh honey. I would have advised NOT to, but you're a big boy now and can make your own decisions hunh ;)
I think I understand how you feel. It's when I'm in that kind of mood that I read the same paragraph seven times over without taking in a word. It's a horrible feeling, and wanting to be away from it all is always the way I respond too...
I think you need to set aside some time where you don't have to work. An afternoon to go and sit somewhere quiet and do something that'll relax you, or meet up with some friends and have a laugh, without feeling guilty for not working instead.
When I felt like this back at home, I used to go have lunch in the park, listening to music on my ipod. Always helped sort me out.
God bless honey x x
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